Today is a day of work... I have a lot of things due tomorrow or Friday but come the weekend I will have some time to get even more done.  I can't wait for the weekend!!

Tomorrow I have to sign my ASL ABC story, I am scared for that.  I did fine on the 123 story but this is much longer.  Getting in front of the class and signing makes me nervous.  Other than that my day should go pretty smoothly.. lots of cleaning up in the office n such.

Agenda for the weekend.. Put up pictures, clean, do more homework, and write speeches.  Speeches are going to be the fun part.  I talked to Elyse today so I know a lot more about the president and I will be talking to karamae later in the week.  I am scared.. I hope that people find me knowledgeable and respectable enough to represent them.  I really want one of these positions.  I am scared to see how things turn out, even overall.  I feel like so many people are falling off of the earth before their time which leaves us with fewer and fewer people.  I hope people take the time to really consider thier options and use logic.  Don't vote for someone because you like them more, do it because they will do a good job.  Anyways..

I did win Band Council Historian which is sweet.  This summer will be a big updating the Words to Live by type of summer.  The new officers were inducted on Tuesday and it's pretty exciting.  I really think our council can be amazing and really help the band out.. which is why we are here in the first place.

What else.. Other than band things are pretty mello.. I have been working on homework and going to work.  I have not had a lot of time to work out and that is sad.

I don't know what else to write, this was really just something to distract me from my homework.. it worked..

and the weekend begins

I can't exactly say this has been my best week.. or my worst.

There have been so many things I am trying to get done and it's not working.  I wish I could remember more but I feel like I forget sooo much and it's really getting irritating.  I need a new memory!

I am really torn right now... on tuesday doc told us leadership day was 10-2 on the 31st well go figure I am suppose to be going to Tennessee that weekend.  I told him where I would be and I don't think he was happy.  I don't think he realizes that he tells us things so late and we already have plans.  Such as we already have the ballparks planned and we have to do stuff in advance , you can't do everything last minute like he insists.  I guess I am just irritated because I have been looking forward to this weekend and now I feel like something bad is going to happen if I go.  I feel like he is not going to give me a leadership postion of something shady like that.. I know people have not gone in the past but I feel like I have more to live up to.  I feel horrible not going but why should i have to give up by whole 4 day weekend for a freaking 4 hour lecture..... I guess I am starting to understand morea and more why people get irritating giving all their time to band.  I feel like I give so much and it's never enough. Between band and theta I barley ever get a free weekend and usually that is okay I have no problem working around that and serving the band and community but goodness it sucks when something comes up once, just once.

ball parks all weekend long.. o yay..

welp gotta pee and waiting for amanda to get home to help me, lol

      I am not really sure what motivated me to post today.  I have been thinking about it and never really knew what to say, not that I do know either.  A bit ago I read back through some of my old posts and they make me sad.  This sounds greedy but I want to have all of my high school friends just as close as they were and have all of my college friends too, guess I am living in a dream world.

     Nominations for band are rapidly approaching and boy am I scared.  Band Council is next week and I am running for Historian.  I am actually trying to write a speech right now but I have a feeling I will get up and ramble paper in hand or not.  I hope to get the postion, although who runs for something hoping they don't win?.. ha

     Next comes Theta elections.  We went through first round of nominations and they were pretty close to how I expected.  I am truely honored that I was nominated for as much as I was and I am glad that people seemed to how faith in me.  I know that I ask a lot of questions and sometimes seem like a bitch but it is all to make things better.  You always need that one person to stand up and be a bitch and since Shannon is leaving I suppose I shall take her place :)

    Classes are going pretty good this quarter.  I am enjoying the one's I am taking and am getting things done on time, even early most times!  I even have time to work out this quarter!! Now I am not calling myself fat but upon standing on the scale today I was sad.  I know that I generally gain weight in winter quarter due to coldness, stress, and more but I didn't expect what I saw.  I guess I have a lot of work to do and hopefully it will start paying of.  I am learning to eat a tad healthier even though I must be  the pickiest person ever.

   Life in general is crazy as always.  Right now there is sickness going around and I hope to not catch it.  Matt has it so that means my chances of getting it go up.  He has been sleeping all evening and on through the night so I hope he feels better in the morning.  I was never the kid to get sick so now that I do a little more often or when he does I need to find the correct ways to take care of him.  Oh sickness, that reminds me that I have mucho doctors appointments to make.  It is almost a pain that I do not go home often because of such things.  I like my home doctors but it is to the point that I am never home long enough to get them all in.  If I liked home more I would go back, but really I would rather just find some down here.

   As I look back I think how I miss home.  The thing I have realized is that I miss what home used to be.  Now at home everyone is gone, going their seperate ways, and have new friends.  Being so far away always complicates things....  I am thankful that I have an apartment, great roomates, and great friends here in Cinci.  Unlike the dorms I have a place to go every night that I enjoy.  I am so excited for our house next year!  I think that it will defiently be a good time.   The one downside is the on street parkng BUT I can totally look past that for all of the awesome things that it holds. 

  I guess that's all I shall write for now.  It is currently 12:17 and sleep sometime soon would not be a bad idea, especially since I want to fight the sickness.  Now that I have a bit of an update I will probably write more... who knows maybe a lot more.

Good night all   

what happened to xanga?  no one gets on anymore...:(

I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore..

I don't even know if I know what to write..

I feel like I should have so much time but I end up not having enough.  School starts wednesday and I am not excited, then again who is.  Band oddly enough keeps me going but tears me down all at the same time. I love band but I hate stupid people..

I think I have issues..

I am tired..and should go to bed.. wow what a post.. I'll try and do better next time.